Hi Friends! This is my first “currently” blog. I’ve been seeing this blog theme for such a long time. I realized I haven’t tried doing it and such a good idea to break the ice of a blogging slump. So here we go.
I’m currently watching 📺
Prison Break in Netflix.
This show is super addicting!!! I just finished Season 2 and decided to take a break before jumping on Season 3 which according to my brother will be more thrilling. It was a slow burner in Season 1 that I let it play in my screen while not paying much attention to what was going on. But when it started to finally get interesting , I had difficulties now to put it down. Season 2 was a blast. Found myself screaming at some point because of the twist and turns. It was really a good show. If you are craving for adrenaline rush then Prison Break is for you. It’s an old show and you can see some characters risking their lives just to reach a payphone because not everyone has mobile phones yet. The trendiest phone in this series was flip phones. Good old times.
If you’re not yet familiar with this series, it’s a story about Michael Scolfied who intentionally commit a robbery so he can be detained to the same prison where his brother Lincoln was waiting for his death penalty. His brother was innocent and Michael would do everything to escape the prison together with his brother.
Here’s a fan made trailer of this awesome show
World of the Married Couple
So many K-drama to choose from Netflix and here I chose to watch a Kdrama not available in it. I get interested of this series because of the raves it get from Facebook. I got curious even I’m tired of infidelity stories. However, it is executed like a suspense/thriller that’s why it gets much attention. It’s a good show. It has demonstrated the effect of cheating mostly to the children. My main takeaway would be it’s really a harsh world for women when it comes to professional fields or relationship. Even in divorce, it almost always the woman, even not at fault at the divorce , would get all the punch. But I won’t say this series deserves so much hype. I found some happenings in the series absurd (except for the Episode 14. That was the best part of the show). Every actor was commendable. It actually ended last weekend. I was thinking to write a full review on this. But let’s see.
I’m currently listening 🎵
I’m not much keen in looking for new music or new artists lately. I have made a playlist of the songs that make me heartbroken or lovesick. Not because I love torturing myself but I’m writing a novel. I need these songs to set-up the mood and feels I need.
Here are the artists and title of the songs featured in this playlist.
Joji – Slow dancing in the dark
Muni-muni- Bawat Piyesa
IV of Spades- I Ain’t Perfect
Vertical Horizon-Best I Ever Had
Orange and Lemons- Hanggang Kailan
Join the Club-Nobela
T-ARA- Like the First Time
IV of Spades- Dulo ng Hangganan
Itchyworms- Di Na Muli
I’m happy because my last activity at work during the weekend was smooth. My friends and family are also safe wherever they are. I’m not with them but knowing this makes me feel blessed in a way.
I’m sad because Covid-19 cases is still increasing in the Philippines. As of this writing, we have 12,513 confirmed cases already. And still the government is not keen on Mass Testing.
I’m worried because some areas are already starting to open stablishments. There are a lot of photos showing crowds in one area. We are not yet successful in flattening the curve and seeing those photos i could feel the second wave is not far from reality. I’m also worried about my electric bill. Recently people are expressing their outrage because their recent electric bills have 300-400% increase! My friends and families experienced it. I haven’t received mine yet that’s why I’am anxious. By the way, it inspired to create this short POV skit. I used the photo of my friend’s electric bill for this.
I’m looking forward to go back to normal. I am positive we can still go back to our normal lives. I’m positive that we can travel again. No matter how spot-on the signs that the end of the world sign are, I’m positive that this is not what the Lord has promised. It’s not going to end now and not in the near future. But I do believe that a lot of things must change.
One of the plans that has to be cancelled was my South Korea trip. I already have the visa and the pocket money. It’s one of my dream destinations. I’m still hoping I could still go there before the year ends. *Cross Fingers* For the mean time, I have made a short video of what I will do once the world defeated Covid-19 . I have also pour out my travel frustrations here. How about you? What are your ruined plans because of this pandemic?
That’s it for my Tuesday Currently List! I’m interested to know your currently list too.Let’s chat in the comments.
It’s going to get better,
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HI Friends! I hope you are all doing great. Just like in previous months, I will share a behind the scenes video of my bullet journal set-up this May 2020. Along with this, I will tackle about what is bullet journaling, it’s short history and most importantly, how it has been helping me personally now that I’ve been doing this for more than four months already. And maybe it can help you too.
1.What is Bullet Journal?
Bullet Journal or Bujo is invented and coined by a digital designer named Ryder Carroll. It is simply an organizational method to improve productivity and track everything that matters by using a notebook. You could say it’s like using a planner, sticky notes or calendar mobile applications. But what set bullet journal method apart is it hones the skill of de-cluttering the mind and sense of focus.
2. What is the short history of Bullet Journal method?
Ryder Carroll was diagnosed with “Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder ” or (ADHD) as a child. It’s a mental disorder characterized by inability to focus, learning disability and excessive activity. Growing up, journaling has been his refuge to cut the noise in his head. Through the years, he developed the system that helped him outgrew the challenges of having ADHD . Encouraged by a friend who found the same system useful in his own life, he shared his method online and soon garnered attention in social media. Bullet journaling or bujo eventually became a global productivity tool sensation as it helps others achieve their own goals.
The history is best told from the creator of bullet journal himself with his TED TALK entitled “How to Declutter Your Mind–Keep a Journal”. If you’re a scatterbrained myself, I recommend you to watch this 12-minute video.
3. How bullet journaling help my life as a scatterbrain?
I’ve been doing bullet journaling since the start of the year 2020. At that time, I felt like my social media habits are problematic. I was caught in the cycle of I want to do something but I got a little time. Not that I’m too busy but I was just wasting my time away. Then I will feel guilty and ashamed afterwards. You see, i am not diagnosed with ADHD like the creator of bujo. But the difficulty to focus resonated with me. I used to be an old school journalist since highschool. It stopped when I started working. And of course, when mobile phones became the extension of a person. It was not the only hobby that disappeared. I was also not that into reading books anymore as I used to. A lot of study says that social media makes people impatient, shortens the attention span, gives FOMO (Fear of Missing Out) and makes people seek validation by number of followers and likes. In my case, I recognized these signs are true.
It was with my endless scrolling that I stumbled upon the hashtag #bujo and re-discover the world of journaling. I was amazed on how flexible bujo can be. And how it is not demanding it terms of your writing prowess. In most bujo, it’s ideal to have one liner description of a task or thoughts. But feel free to write in your heart content when you feel like it. I decided at that time to lessen my social media and replace it with analog writing to help me with this addiction.
I’m a natural scatterbrain and forgetful. Writing my tasks everyday made me remember majority of my tasks both for work and personal artistic endevors. I am far from what we can say “accomplished blogger” out there. I still forget things specially if I forgot to write a task itself. But I could say that I am making progress compared to what I was before. For example, I am now starting to get meaningful interaction in my Instagram contents.
As Covid-19 pandemic progressed, bullet journaling in return became a refuge. I am spending most of the quarantine alone in a dormitory. Writing my thoughts comforted me. Also, working with the aesthetic of my pages gives me space for artistic outlet. It makes me feel excited at least even I am home alone.
Journaling has been one of the popular method of therapy in the world of psychology. Some prefers maintaining an anonymous blog or any digital writing. In my case, writing by hand gave me more sense of peace and comfort. Maybe because I get distracted easily with social media.
Maintaining a bullet journal can be time-consuming. But I recommend everyone to try it. You can start with one-sentence gratitude journal everyday if writing is not your thing. In my first month, I actually did not do the bullet journaling method by itself. I just tested if I could keep the habit of journaling for a month . Now that I fell in love with it, I decided to proceed to study the bullet journaling method itself. In my next blog, I will write a “Getting Started Guide” and I will try my best to explain it in simplest term. But of course there are already lot of references in the cyberworld if you are curious enough at this very moment.
Before I end this blog, I would also like to invite you to be one of my International Blogger Friend. The basic idea is to have at least one blogger friend in each country. In the Philippines where I live, I also have a separate directory called one friend in each PH Region. For more details, just go to this link. I hope you accept my invitation!
Remember you are awesome,
For inquiries and collaborations, LET’s CONNECT!!!!!!
Note: These characters are base on Philippines setting
1. Healthcare Frontliners
The real-life Avengers of this crisis. Everyday they have direct contact to COVID Patients which puts their lives at greater risks. In fact, as of this writing , 21 Filipino doctors had died because of corona virus. Main cause is lack of Personal Protective Equipment and the patients lying about their condition and travel history.
Not only their lives are in peril, they were also discriminated in the community. Just check out this news. A nurse has been harassed and beaten. On top of that the suspect threw bleach to his face that caused damage in his eyes. All because they thought he has covid-19 just because he is working in a hospital. He’s just doing his job. This is just one of the heartbreaking stories of our frontliners being harassed and discriminated.
We welcome the month of April with a news of tragic medevac plane crash in NAIA. It killed doctors, airline crew and patient on their way to their medical mission. Full story here.
Recently, an artist named Aurelio Castro III paid tribute to our fallen heroes by drawing them their portraits. Get to know him and the doctors,nurses here in GMANEWSNETWORK.COM
Know more about our fallen healthcare workers in the lenses of their love ones in this video from ABS-CBN. Grab your tissues!
Let’s not add to the burden of our medical warriors. Stay at home and don’t discriminate. To the government, please don’t ask for volunteer nurses. They are risking their lives and they deserve a proper compensation for it.
Twitter source unknown. CTTO.
2. Essential Workers Frontliners
They may not be patient-facing but they face great risks too as they are still out there interacting with people without knowing if they are carriers or not. They still go to work and serve our basic needs such as food , money and protection. . Finally we see that in the worst station like this, its their work that are essential and yet they are mostly underpaid. They should have hazard pay and personal protective equipment too
3. Quarantine Tributes
They are the member of the household who holds the quarantine pass. The brave the long lines in the supermarket and groceries just to get the essentials of the family. If you are the quarantine tribute in the family, you should be proud of yourself as you’re sacrificing your safety too for the sake of your family. Don’t forget to sanitize when going back home from the run.
Things we learn: Their work is essential to our lives. When this is over, appreciate our essential workers by giving them a raise.
4. The Poorest of the Poor.
People whose livelihood depends on daily wages and won’t be having any funds during this quarantine period. They heavily needs government subsidies and relief goods. However, as this is not enough, they find it hard to comply with quarantine because they have to seek opportunities to have money. For them , the quarantine is a nightmare. Quoting from a news interview, they may not die because of coronavirus but out of hunger.
Just watch how a 55 year old lady cried helplessly as she was not given relief goods because she has no stub.
These tricycle drivers are still sneaking to work because they need to provide for the family.
5. The Middle Class
I once read that the middle class are those one hospital bill away from being poor. And in this Covid19 crisis, they are not included in the social amelioration program of the government. Finally, governor Jonvic Remulla voiced out the plight of the middle class. He actually summed it all in his open letter to the President. They are the largest population that pays the taxes and yet often neglected. They needed support too. Because of this the poorest of the poor and middle class had on-going word clash in social media.
Or if you are the member of the family who does not have the quarantine pass and just literally has to stay at home, then you are a hero too. Complying in quarantine is a sacrifice also. It’s not easy and some are struggling with their mental health for it. If you are doing your best to deal with this, maybe by binge-watching series, doing tik-tok videos, learning new skills, voicing out in social media, cooking and other strategy to combat boredom, then you are doing a good job.
Get some tips on how to make the most out of the quarantine by this awesome and funny comic of Real Life of Reg
7. The Work-From-Home Workforce
Mostly coming from BPO-IT industry, the favorable work-from -home arrangement has enable their operations to continue in spite of the pandemic. And it’s doing Philippine economy a massive favor. Those people working in BPO are now sharing this important message “the BPO employees you look down on are the ones holding the economy together right now.”
As advantageous as it sounds, working from home has it’s own woes too. Sharing with you a funny comic by Sskait.
8. Social Media Warriors
Well, there’s a whole lot of category for this one and I don’t want to attempt to break it all down. But all I can say is Social Media has empowered the voice of the people. Healthy arguments are fine. I believe that helps us to send the message to the government if we are collectively happy or not. Just don’t resort to bullying, name-calling and harassment. Also make sure that you share factual news.
9. The Elitists Who Forgot to Check Their Privileges
Not putting rich people in general, but it’s obvious that there are elite people who can’t understand the plight of the poor. Mostly it’s prevalent to our government officials. their lack of empathy has affected the way they device plans to ease the real situation of the common Filipinos. Just look at how dismissive they are to the real situation of public transportation in the country. Unfortunately, it carry over in the time of pandemic. As much as we understand the objective of quarantine, the sad reality is there are families who can’t just afford to sit still at home like rich people can.
To those who are complaining about the quarantine period and curfews, just remember that your grandparents were called to war; you were being called to sit on the couch and watch Netflix. You can do this”.
Some immediately commented that poor Filipinos won’t even have access to Netflix. Although he explained his side already and that statement was not original , this already offended a lot of his followers and marked him as insensitive. Same graphic was shared by Mocha Uson and Lea Salonga.
This screengrab came from this article in rappler and it’s a good opinion article on how the apathetic some celebrities and government officials are.
10. The Praised Politicians.
Looking at the brighter side, some LGU leaders are receiving positive attention because of their quality ideas and response to the crisis. Of course there are more politicians like them out there. But undeniably, Vico Sotto was the most talked about mayor in social media.
I’m highlighting Vico Sotto and Gatchalian’s tweet to each other regarding adopting ideas and best practices in response to Covid19 quarantine period. Reading their tweets give me hope for the country.
11. The Fundraisers
Caritas Manila is just a sample. But even ordinary households go out of their way to make personalized PPE ‘s for their nearest hospital and some lead fundraising drives to provide to the poor. If you want to help , this google drive link holds a spreadsheet of details of the different groups that coordinates efforts to help hospitals and the needy.
12. Hated Politicians
If there’s any good thing about Covid19 , it brings out the true colors of many politicians. The frontrunners for this category will be Joy Belmonte and Koko Pimentel . Aside from them, there are also reports of mayors missing in action. I hope people will always remember this lesson and vote wisely in next elections.
13. The Pasaway’s (the Non-Law Abiding Individuals)
So there are people who can’t just follow the simple quarantine protocols. They are not going out to seek for work and groceries either. Sadlymost offenders are adults. Just look at the sample below which happened in Mandaluyong City. The residents hold an illegal cockfighting event ignoring the strict social distancing rule. Gladly they were arrested as deserved.
14. The Office of the President
People love him. People hate him. The great divide continues. But one thing is for sure, we should all pray that he and his team would be successful in leading the country in this time of pandemic. We should follow but remain level-headed critical of their ways. Or else, every Filipino will spiral down along with this virus, no matter what our political preference is.
15. The COVID-19 Victims and Their Families
Covid19 chooses no one. It targets the rich ,the poor, ordinary , celebrities, young and old. But the most vulnerable are the senior citizens. The alarming truth is the number of patients is now way beyond most hospital capacity nowadays. Hospitals have no choice but to send some patients home to have their self-quarantine. But even that was a hard thing to do because the community won’t accept the patient to go back into their homes either. Just like the case here.
Fortunately, there’s way to recover from Covid-19. Some already went out of their way to help on the research and development for the cure.
Still the worst reality was the fate of the fallen victims. They die in isolation without the comfort of their love ones. The family can’t even say their proper goodbyes. The body goes straight to cremation. To add to the pain of the grieving family, they even have difficulties in finding morgue or crematorium that will accept the body.
This story from Facebook detailed the fate of the OP’s father who was made to wait in scorching heat of the sun because hospital could not admit new patients anymore. He died positive in Covid 19.
Together our heart bleeds for them, And I hope we continue to be law-abiding citizens. Staying at home will contribute greatly in stopping this pandemic.
Do you think there’s a role lacking in this list? What is your role is in this quarantine period? If you’re not from the Philippines, are these characters also in your country?
I started bullet journaling this year to lessen my bad habit of killing time through social media. Now this hobby and as well as writing my thoughts have been my refuge from this stay-at-home lifestyle. Join me as I flipthrough my February 2020 bullet journal entries.
Part 1: The Cover Page. To set the mood and theme of this month.
Part 2: My Habit Tracker. This looks like a beanstalk actually. I only decided to track 5 habits here. But they are hard to acquire habits. I draw leaves on the corresponding branch if I executed that particular habit.
Part 3:My Blog Plan Tracker. This is where I write my blog topic ideas. I don’t have problems with ideas. It’s the execution that is hard as always haha.
Part 4: Weekly Spreads!
FIRST WEEK. For the first week of February, I suddenly had this idea of combining a mood tracker and my daily thoughts in a comic strip format. Each leaves will have an expression depending on my overall disposition that day. With the comic balloon, it will narrate my thoughts. I also keep tracked of my estimate spending for each day.
For a closer look when the spread is not yet filled-up. So last Feb 3, I was hopeful that NCOV will be over soon because I heard that HIV treatment worked well in a patient. I was also hopeful that time that our March-April trip to South Korea will push through. But writing it now during a lockdown, it made me sad because obviously, it did not end so soon as I hoped it would be. And our South Korean trip was also cancelled. ***Sigh***
SECOND WEEK. I continued this concept on the second week. But the it’s the potty-plants with faces this time. I also continued to track the estimate spending for each day. The goals for this week is still in the same corner.
THIRD WEEK: I didn’t have time to do the same style so I just pasted stickers here and there then write whatever. It did not adhere much with Potty Plant theme. But I made sure the color will still be mostly brown. These stickers are vintage outfit stickers.
FOURTH WEEK: By this time, I already received my Paperang 2.0 that is why there are now images of each day of the week here in the fourth week. The images are captured and printed directly from mobile phone. I will blog my experience with Paperang soon.
Part 5: My Sunday Spreads. I decided to write a full-page Sunday journal each week. Also I set this as my evaluation day the things I achieved that week and my points to improve for the following week.
Part 6: Payday Tracker. I started this last month. This aim to track how I divide my payday earnings.
Part 8: Filler spreads. These are my first prints in Paperang 2.0.
Just random full page calligraphy when I feel it,
Part 9: Monthly Evaluation. The part where I review my goals and if they are achieved at the end of the month. I also reflect on my habits ,pain points and improvements that I should carry over the next month.
That ends my February set-up! Introducing my March 2020 Cover Page as the ending. My theme next month is “Throwback Memories”.
Before I end this post, I also invite you to follow my youtube channel. I will post more bujo stuff soon.
Or maybe you’re interested to be my International Blogger Friend. The idea is to invite everyone in blogosphere and have at least one friend in each country so that means at least 195 blogger friends. It’s not limited to wordpress blogger, or to blogsite platforms. If you are a Instagram blogger, facebook , youtuber, tiktoker! You are welcome! For more details, you can check out my About Page here.
Thank you in advance!
Remember, you are awesome and wonderfully made,
For inquiries and collaborations, LET’s CONNECT!!!!!!
I hope you are doing well! This year I would like to use internet and my blog to really connect into the world. I would love to travel to achieve that and as much as I wanted to, I have limited resources. But Internet is here so I had this idea to create International Blogger Friend Directory. The idea is to invite everyone in blogosphere and have at least one friend in each country so that means at least 195 blogger friends.
I want to diversify the blogs I follow. I am so curious to hear and learn more base on more personal perspective and not just on news/ wikis. I believe blogs reflects much of the writer’s soul and through this I am hoping to have meaningful interactions with people around the globe.
If you’re accepting my invitation, we could do at least one of the following:
Simply follow each other’s blog links and blog platforms.
Give me your three current favorite blog posts (own writing) and I would put my thoughts in the comment. Similarly, I would also send you my own fave blogs post in my blog and your would put your thoughts as well.
Do a blog collaboration (Suggestions below)
be my guest blogger
Exchange favorite book, tv series, movie , netflix and we’ll have an exchange of reviews.
Or we can read book or watch film we both never seen before and let’s have a review about it.
These are just my suggestions. We can talk and agree on topics 😉
Send each other letters or postcards or stickers! (I would love to add this in my bullet journal)
Bond over music! Let’s sing a song as duet in Smule or WeSing.
Duet over Tiktok! Yes I have tiktok account (gurezu). It’s fun. It’s my guilty pleasure. Let’s duet!
Or others we can think of. We could even meet up and bond over coffee,books , movies etc if its possible.
I have actually forget this idea in a while but the invitation and list has been sitting around in my “About Me” page. Empty. Until one day, I received an email from Libera Tarts (https://liberatarts.com/) accepting my invitation. She is a British Filipino ESL teacher currently based in China. It took me awhile to think on what country I will list her. But decided to stick with the location where she is at the moment. At last the list is not empty anymore! By the way, we also agreed to have blog collaboration too. So excited that this is now rolling. Thanks Libera for accepting my invitation and listing me also in your list!
My list of countries as well as the International Blogger Friends Directory is on my About Me Page. The countries in the list are 195 starting from Afghanistan to Zimbabwe. If you think I missed your county, let me know.
If you are already in the Philippines, I am also building another list which is ” BLOGGER FRIENDS PER PH REGION” . I know most of circle here are in wordpress are in the Philippines. If I have more time, I’ll do inventory of my blogger friends so it won’t be empty anymore. ;D
But of course, you can build your own International Blogger Friends Directory too! Let’s help each other build our list! Who knows, at the end of this year we could have at least 195 blogger friends. The thought excites me.
I hope you take my invitation. Just let me know in the comments. Also if you are more active in Instagram or other blogging platforms, just let me know. This list would include bloggers in all platforms.
Have a good day! And remember that you are awesome. Don’t let others make you think otherwise!
I won’t be able to go on to another decade without properly reviewing the excitement, sadness and blessings of 2019. Also I would like to thank all the people who became part of this year. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
This year I dove into the world of voice artistry, went to four major travel destinations, jumped into vlogging and achieved a milestone in my career. Lovelife was exciting at some point but went meh. At least we tried,re-learn and reflect. Better luck next year. Hahahaha!
January 2019: Enrolled in a voice acting school. Got my first voiceover and dubbing experiences. Met talented mentors and classmates. My school ID was wrong. Should be Gurezu.
February 2019. Memorable shoot. I love the props, the venue , the outfit and the model. I hated the weather though. Such pain in the ass.
Graduated as voice artist and even had a radio show. The Villa Jovita adventure happened on Feb but published my blog on March. It went on to be my second popular blog. It rakes views everyday according to my wordpress stats. It’s a small happiness for small bloggers like me.
Finally passed AWS SYS OPS Assoc Exam, completing the AWS Associate Trifecta! It was memorable because I learned my exam date just the morning of the exam itself. I even tried to obtain a med cert just to be excused by AWS. But I was not really sick and I was not good in lying. I just went on with it and just prayed hard for the best. Also after the examination, an earthquake struck Metro Manila. I was in Glorietta, ready for lunch after passing the exam then people came running out of the mall. I had to abandon my lunch order.
To celebrate, I joined a tour group going to Jomalig. I’ve been wanting to go to Jomalig but the 6-hour boat ride always held me back. But because I was happy I took the plunge. I have never joined a big group full of strangers too. So it’s another first for me. At the end everything was worth it. Jomalig is truly a paradise and I gain a friend.
Also this month, I became close to someone which I will call Noot Noot. Won’t go much with the details. Just want to say he made my April colorful. But that’s just it.
Aside from Jomalig, I also went to Pangasinan with my DGROUP team. I traveled twice, flirt a little (charot) and passed my certification exam. What a beautiful summer.
I also engaged in an online radio talk show in Vg8 Radio. And it was also my first time to have Kawa bath experience.
June 2019. We celebrate Mama’s birthday with extended family. It was different from other celebration because here we were complete. Brother’s gf was also with us. The place is called Torres Land Farm and this resort would take you around the world. Read my blog about it here: https://gurezu.com/2019/06/
Finally made a youtube channel and published my first official vlog. I also got addicted with Black Mirror and decided to write episode analysis.
Here’s my very first Gurezu Reviews Vlog by the way:
August 2019. Mindblowing and unexpected. I just felt happy to be nominated. But to win was a blast. Thank you Lord! My only regret was I did not prepared a speech. Ended up with generic thank you.
And of course, this month I went to Cebu with my Dgroup friends. Our trip to Sumilon Island was my personal fave. Of course this marks another first, to encounter a whaleshark. Here’s my Highlight VLOG of my Cebu Trip.
Finally, after long months of hiatus, I went back to organizing photoshoots. Got two photoshoots this month.
This is not my first time in Boracay. But this is a milestone for me since it was our grandest family getaway ever. We grew up swimming in Manila Bay only and the idea of Boracay is far-fetched. So this is a memorable experience for us. I organized this and also the main sponsor here as part of my celebration for my birthday and winning an award at work.. The highlight of this trip was my first parasailing experience. I was not able to do that the first time I went to Boracay because I could not afford it. So I came back with a vengeance.
To reach Boracay, we traveled by sea instead of airplane. I blogged about our 2go ship experience here.
First out of the country since 2014. First time to prepare and plan for the itinerary. Usually kaladkarin lang ako e. I realized preparing for itinerary is an ART! It gave me stress but I enjoyed it.
This has to be my chillest December. Main reason, I did not participate in any big parties. I did not spent the month practicing a dance. Instead, I participated in a month long EAT-ALL-YOU -CAN BUFFET. Started with Sambokojin, then BGC HIgh Street Cafe, NUI Vikings then YAKIMIX PRIME. I certainly gain weight. There’s no denying it. What I love about this December, I got to join a party as a volunteer in an orphanage for a day. I spent Christmas with my favorite Tita and Tito. I had time to actually buy gifts and attend small parties. Also had time to attend Simbang Gabi again! This may be my chillest December to date but I truly enjoyed it.
My recap here could be full of HIGH’s. But to tell you the truth, I entered the year 2019 with a heavy heart. Particularly, I felt stressed at work and I was not good at controlling my emotions. ( I cried a lot at work) That was the reason why I enrolled in a voice acting school as a way to vent my emotion. Voice acting school is enjoyable but to tell you the truth I did not do well with it. I felt short with so many areas. I’m not sure if I ‘m going to pursue it any further. But I did not regret it at all. I know some day everything that I did will make sense.
I also had slight heartbreak this year. I would say slight because the person was far anyway. And I have this lingering doubt from the start. But just in case, he thought of me and this blog, I want to tell him this.
To Noot Noot,
This is tot. Thank you for the short time you comforted me with your words. You came at the the time when everything was terrible. And you made me feel I was not alone. When you were gone, surprisingly everything went well on my end. I realized maybe that was your only mission in my life, ot make that dark period bearable. And that’s all it could ever get. I don’t hold any grudges anymore. I just pray that you are well now wherever you are. —END—
I also want to write another letter for a different person.
And to the person who confessed that he liked me and formally ask me for a date. I want to tell you that you are very brave. And I hope that even if I did not accept your feelings, your courage will not falter. Someday the right person will come and she will deserve your courage. So don’t let our situation kill that moment. I am not brave as yours. And I know only the brave ones will get what they deserve. I hope I can teach myself to be brave too. I admired that. –END–
So yeah, that’s another low of 2019. My lovelife was still meh. But I get reminded and re-learn things.
However, my greatest frustration or low I think would be I did not finish my novel. Again. I was so positive I could do it this year. But I did not maintain the momentum. The good thing was I wrote a lot. I did not finished it but the plot was already there. i just have to write it. That’s why this January 2019, I will carry it on. I don’t want to give up. Please pray for me.
The important lesson I learned is don’t lose hope that your situation won’t change. Surprisingly at the later half of the year, work became lighter after so much prayer. And I guess the rest of the year rewarded me for the hardship I went through with the first half of the year. I did not expect to get an award and travel with my family and then abroad. I believe everything is with God’s grace. And now it made sense that the hardship taught me something.
So if you are having a hard time and you entered 2020 with a heavy heart, let not that determine your whole year. There are many things that can happen. If you want it to be better, sometimes you have to fight for it with your spirit. And if still hard, pray harder. Focus on what you have and start there. I tell you that a great turnaround will happen. Just have faith.
And that’s it for my yearly recap. Cheers!
Remember, you are awesome and don’t let others make you feel otherwise.
This will be just a gallery of my favorite personal photos of 2018. I would also like to give thanks to my friends, families, colleagues and strangers who took these wonderful photos of mine. Thank you for sharing the journey of the year with me.
Cheers to more photos and memories this year 2019!
But at last, this is by far my most favorite of 2018. Location was Northern Blossom. Photography by my sister Mary Ann.
As you can see. I haven’t written any for Monday. It’s because I slept immediately as soon as I lie on my bed. I remember thinking if I should write a blog or just a short addition to my short story. But as I contemplate, I fell asleep. Isn’t that the best sleep? The one with a kind of resistance on your part but sleep won and you didn’t even notice you fell into the deep snooze. I slept at around 10:30pm. For today, I am grateful that my urgent issue at work was finally resolved. I’ve been in a meeting almost the whole day. I talked with 3 different nationalities: Filipino, Indian and Swedish. I know I caught myself failing on my grammar or just can’t say anything that would make sense at all. I felt like I embarassed myself. However, when the issue was finally resolved, I got a funniest remark from one of the Filipinos. He said my English and accent depended on who I am talking to. They caught me specially having a different sophisticated accent when talking someone from Sweden. Hahaha that’s a really funny insight for me. At least its not that bad I guess. I mean the issue was resolved regardless. It means I have done enough communication.lol And because the issue was resolved, I was able to catch up on the Zumba Party organized by our building admin. I was late almost for one hour. I sneaked behind my friend Mommy J who was already from the start of the program. I secretly filmed her dance before I started to participate actively in the routine. Haha! Not too long after I arrived, it’s was break time already. My timing was great. The event has provided free coconut drink and banana.
After breaktime, we danced again for one hour more. I perspired and get tired a lot. And I was in for only half of the program. What more if I started from the beginning just like my friend. Haha! Before we went down, I asked my friend Mommy J to take a pic of me. Remembrance.
After getting my things, I ate my dinner and went home. As soon as I arrived at the dorm, the rain fell hard. What a relief that I’m already at home. Haha! I’m too lazy to use an umbrella. I did some writing duties before writing this. Wow today I felt accomplished today!
It’s 1 am already. Lol. Late again. Good luck tomorrow.
July 25, 2018, Wednesday
I got a problem. No one was available to be our subject for our next club’s photosession. That was sad. 😥 and I haven’t posted a new blog here. I’m too busy really. I wish I have the time in the world. The good thing about today was the free dinner at Uncle Cheffy’s. It was a send-off dinner to our HR who’s already leaving for greener pasture. As soon as I arrived, the beef steak dinner was served. I was supposed to NOT eat rice during dinner but when I realized, I have eaten everything on my plate. I have also eaten a lot of calamares. It happened so fast. And I was the person telling everyone I was not that hungry. Haha! Well the food is free so…
On my way back to dorm, I walk passed a salon. I remembered that i’ve been wanting to cut my hair short because I’m finding it very difficult to shampoo and comb my hair. More than half of my routine every morning is consumed by untangling my super thick and long hair. So I decided to inquire. I thought they would advise me to visit next time because its getting late. I thought its already 9:30pm. To my surprised, it’s only 8:30pm and they agreed to process my hair with Brazilian Blowdry treatment and haircut. All for P1500.00.
I showed them pictures of my peg hairstyle.
Haha! Do you recognize her? If you don’t, this came from a Japanese show in Netflix entitles Kakegurui. It’s about a school of cumpulsive gamblers. I don’t like the show that much but I really like the heroine. She’s so damn pretty with that sleek hair.
I also stressed that I want my bangs to be light. I’m bad in maintaining full bangs. So I like bangs that I can hide when I don’t feel like it. The hair stylist suggested that I should have shower bangs instead. Sounds promising so I said, ok Go!
Here’s the before pics. To be honest, my long hair was looking sleek and shiny tonight. Like wow, why now? When I am about to cut you? Why just look good and manageable now?
For a while I had second thoughts but I still decided to go for it because I want to make my life easier.
And after 2 hours, here’s the result!!
I feel lighter now.What a relief! I can say that I am satisfied with the result.
I gave P200.00 tip to the hairstylist for a job well done.
I wore the same color shirt of all the staffs here in the salon. I belong! I went home and now writing this! It’s already past 1 am. I am hopeless. Haha!
July 26, 2018, Thursday
What can I say about today? Well it’s full of food and meetings!
Team Lunch-out at Oppah Chicken!
For our breaktime in the afternoon, one of our officemates treated us for noodles, chicken and pizza.
There are still lot of chicken and pansit left for dinner. I am so full.
One fact about me, I love spicy food. And if the food aint spicy, I got to soaked the food with my special sauce I bought from a food bazaar in our building.
Introducing. Bad Boy Tikboy. INSANE IN THE BRAIN!
I’ll be sleeping at the office for tonight because I have an activity at dawn. You should know by now that I have a bad habit of sleeping late. So better sleep here in the office or else I’m screwed.
But before sleeping. Let me share with you a photo of my officemate enjoying my Lolita Jumpskirt.
July 27, 2018 Friday
I felt so sleepy the whole day. I only had 3 hours sleep today for a work-related activity this morning. I went out of work at 5:30pm. But at the same time I was so hungry. One of the greatest conflict of life is to feel hungry and sleepy at the same time. I decided to eat in a not so crowded restaurant on my way home. I brought my camera with me so I decided to take pictures while I wait for my food.
To tell you the truth, I fell asleep while waiting. Maybe 2 minutes long. My camera was on the table. Thank God. If someone with a bad heart, he could stole my camera and run far away I before I could be aware of it. LOL.
Anyway I was satisfied with the food. I’ll reserve other pictures for a separate food blog.
Yes I know, I got a lot of backlogs already. I wish I have the time of the world 😥
After this, I excitedly book a grab ride to my dorm. Write a little for this. Then sleep. I’ll be sleeping at 9:30pm. This is EARLY!!! This is Happening at last!
Huh? It’s Wednesday already? What happened to Monday and Tuesday? Haha! The passing time is really getting on my nerves!!!
I actually know what happened last two days. I woke up, get to work, go home and chat with my friends about the Chiong Murder Case. Tuesday was the same. The documentary “Give Up Tomorrow” really hit the sensibilities of the people in social media. I know there are a lot of things going on in our country: extra-judicial killings per se but I guess, people now realize that weight of being wrongly convicted. In the case of Paco, its already 21 years and its still counting. Who won’t be afraid. ? Having talked with people who believe he is innocent and guilty, having read the commentaries and Supreme Court files, I think I am ready to release my own verdict soon.
Here’s the documentary aka horror story. Try watching it and ask yourself. Is Paco really innocent? Does he deserve death penalty?
But for the mean time, what happened today was this
1. I WAS NOT FEELING WELL and I stayed in the dorm all day. I edited my pictures from Luljetta Hanging Gardens and my album in our Levitation Photography Session. This is the result of my edit for today.
Obviously, levitation photography is a technique that will make the subject look he’s floating on air. Our model in this picture was an officemate. He’s our videographer actually but can pass as a model as you can see! Haha! This photoshoot was done last month. Talk about procrastination! Ahahaha!
July 19, 2018, Thursday
Woah! It’s Thursday already? Seriously are you kidding me?
Nothing much has happened today. As usual I went to work. It was raining all day. We can see outside through the glass walls and damn there was 0 visibility. I was supposed to attend a photography seminar and yet again, I would not dare to deal the Edsa traffic because of the rain. And besides I got an issue to solve.
Yesterday I was absent right? Now my office mates are jokingly asking me what happened to my “job interview” yesterday. I told them I really did not feel well and I stayed in my room. So they concluded that I just had a Skype interview then hahah! They don’t really believe me haha!
My friends and I did not talk about Paco anymore. Yesterday we discussed that we should move on already. Whether or not the allegations are true, nothing will happen if the case would not be re-opened. Major tv station seems not to mind the chaos happening in social media. They used to catch the latest thing but they seem eerily silent about it. Hmmm.. Meanwhile the reviews for “Jacqueline Comes Home” finally arrived and all of them are saying its a trash movie. That it did not portray even the Chiong side accurately. But well, movie is really like that right?
I went home, ate my dinner then open my laptop to continue my levitation photography editing. I’ll be sharing the full set soon in another post. For now, I’ll be sharing a silhouette photo that I also took during the same session. I edited this in Adobe Lightroom using Rufosque preset.
It’s 2 am already. I’m still awake and awfully hungry. I’ll grab something to eat then hit the sack! I predict I’ll be having a hard time waking up tomorrow and regret that I did not sleep early. Hahahahah!
July 20, 2018 Friday
1. WOKE UP LATE. REGRETED SLEEPING LATE.
4. MATCHA GREEN TEA FRAPPE
5. EAT. GO HOME.
6. IT’S LATE AGAIN. 1:11 am. But the great thing is its Saturday tomorrow. I wonder how long my sleep for tonight.
July 21, 2018 Saturday
As expected, I woke up at around 1pm. This is way past breakfast and even late for lunch. But I deserve all this sleep. I don’t feel guilty. But still, I could warp my body clock a bit. Nothing beats waking up early and getting lot of shits done before lunch.
Suppose to be, today I have a reunion outing to attend. But because of the weather and bad flood, it was cancelled. Good thing because this weather is making me feeling lazy for adventures.
I decided to take the first meal of the day in a nearby cafe’.
I have paid the bill when a mysterious song began. I can’t grasp the lyrics but the melody is so sweet and romantic. I pictured myself suddenly in a middle of a night, slow-dancing with a tall man. It was not sark becausethe night was clear and there are fireflies flying and dancing around us. I must find that song!
I was about to record some bits of the song for later research when it faded away and replaced by a Katy Perry song. I approached the staff of the cafe’ and ask what was the song. He said he did not notice or aware what the song was before katy pery. And also the pkaylist was shuffled in spotify. We looked at rhe playlist so we could figured it out. I even hummed the tune to narrow down the choices. We played two songs before the mystery was sokved! I took a photo of the screen to take a note of the title. It was Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine. Hmm the title sounds interesting
I bid goodbye to that helpful staff.
After that I packed my things and booked a trip to Glorietta mall. I need to do some errands related to ny finance then have to do some shopping.
I am lucky that viral pianist grandpa was here at the mall.
I saw him in Facebook already because some appreciative audience uploaded his video and it went viral. Lolo is like a casual mall visitor. It happens that there is a piano display which is free for anyone to play with and he decided to take the sit. After that, he visits here more often. Lolo is not only good but full of energy in his performances. One could not help but sing. He’s so approachable and even accepts requests. Now, he enjoys playing this piano regularly and everyone can now support him by giving money in his small “Marks and Spencer” bag beside the piano. I won’t mind because he gives performances nothing short of spectacular.
Of course I can’t let this moment pass by without my own recording of this Amazing Granpa…and some of my singing too with bits of “yehey” and “wow”.
Can’t Help Falling In Love
Quando, Quando, Quando
I think I finished three songs before I moved on. I have to buy new bb cream, lipstick and some toiletries. I also in the mood for new clothes. I alot monthly budget for that.
This me in the fitting room with the blazer I ended up not buying.
I finished my shopping with a small time hang-out in Starbucks. It was not in my plan but the the rain was heavy and my mobile phone battery was almost drained. I charged it in Starbucks while I drink another cup of hot coffee. After that I booked a ride back to my original home.
My sister and mother were having dinner when I arrived. My sister immediately ransacked my shopping paper bag . They teased me because I bought new lipstick again!!! My sister opened it and applied the lippie immediately. She liked it.
While upstairs, my sister and I talked about random funny things we saw in the internet. I opened my laptop and researched about that mysterious song that captivated me today. I also made my sister listen to it. To my surprise, the song lyrics looks like it is not a love song at all. The lyrics doesn’t even make sense if you don’t spend time thinking deeper about it. It’s deep. One can have its own interpretation. Where it is a love song or not, it’s up to you.
Here’ s a lyric video. Another trivia, its part of the OST of Twilight movie series. I’m not a fan that’s why I don’t know.
IMO, there are dual, yet similar, themes running through this song: (1) an individual’s loss of innocence/idealism; and (2) the degradation/dissolution of the mythical “American” dream.
The first verse sets our protagonist as an innocent child (quick, wet, diving too deep) – newly born, baptized, full of energy/enthusiasm, carefree. We get a glimpse of what’s to come through the “blind” eyes of the adult world whom the child can already see seem focused on material things (“plastic toys”). The “cops” (his own adulthood) crash the party and he’s forced to grow up and give up his pure youthful enjoyment of life (cut his baby hair). Thus, he begins his quest to find his meaning/life in this adult American landscape. For me, it also brings to mind the end of the idealism of the peace/protest movement of the late 60’s…the system crushes the uprising…the hippies cut their hair…and wander off…going on to what?
Well, the second verse tells us exactly where our protagonist’s journey has landed him…a big fat safe spot with the adults of his youth. He’s achieved the “American Dream”, or has he? Now all talk and no action. He curses himself and the wrong/injustice he sees around him, yet he idly sits and watches these “poison rats” (the establishment, big business, corrupt government) slither by and destroy his ideal world. He bides his time in his magazines, finding pleasure in viewing some advertisement of folks fishing in some idyllic river. He is not out there himself, but even if he was, he would be merely pillaging/ruining/sacrificing a place of nature (“blood of christ mountain stream”).
It’s a really depressing song, but it’s certainly beautiful.
How about you? What could you interpret with this song? I would really love to know!
July 22, 2018. Sunday
I got a lot of things to say today. I think today was productive. But damn I was not able to sleep properly last night. I think I’m not used to sleeping in my original home anymore. I went back early to my dormitory because I badly needed sleep. It’s 9:54pm now as I write this. I want to write more but my body needed rest. By the way, I have done some editing and uploaded it in Facebook. Here are they.
I also did a capsule review of Marugame Noodles. I decided not to write a separate wordpress blog post for the mean time because my mobile photography was not so good. I did not do justice to a great-tasting food.
And I haven’t shared my the full output of my Levitation Photography edits. Here it is, uploaded since yesterday. I’ll be writing a separate blog post of my editing photography and editing process for this. Check it out soon! And please follow my Facebook page Gurezu Blog too!
That’s all for now. I’ll be sleeping before 10 pm for the first time in many moons. Is this the start of a new life from being night owl to morning person? Let’s see!!!
I decided to start journaling again because I think I am losing the ability to write. So every day I’ll add bits and bits here in my draft. Hope I can do this consistently.
July 10, 2018. Tuesday.
The meeting with foreigners at work that caused me a bit of anxiety and panic since last week was finally finished earlier. It went great! As usual, when I’m nervous, I covered it up with being talkative and cheerful. It works for me. It works also with past job interviews. I guess its not a downside after all.
Earlier, someone from the past reached out to me in social media. Being associated with that person was one of the lowest point of my life. But I’m glad it did not do much chaos in my life because I still had sense of righteousness back then. But I didn’t regret what happened. I just won’t want to waste my time and emotional energy again now I am in much better place. So I eventually ignored him. That’s the only right thing to do.
I think that’s all for today. I’m going to write about my friend’s short film about “Ang Byahe ni Marlon”. I am so ecstatic for my friend because the film won the best film in the recent “Istorya ng Pag-asa film festival”. Anyway I’ll reserve other info in other blog. Nightie!
June 11, 2018. Wednesday.
This is indeed a busy day at work. Gah!
There is a funny thing that was discussed at work. I told you yesterday that I met some of the foreigner colleagues from the another team I work with for the first time. Earlier we had a meeting again and this time, I met other Filipino members of their team. The foreigners were surprised to know that that was the first time I met the members who are just working at the same building, just few floors away from me. I’ve been talking with them thru skype almost everyday. We work very near with each other and yet, the first people I met personally from their team were the one’s who came from abroad ahahah. Isn’t that ironic?
Anyway after work, we had a photoshoot practice again with my manager. We are trying how to do the shutter drag effect. . It was really tiring but we did learn something on how to set up the lights to achieve it. By the way, since this is still a practice , we didn’t invite a model yet. I am the model for this practice shoot. I was not prepared. Haha .
Anyway I haven’t had a copy of the photos since we need to go home and we were hungry. I will get it tomorrow and post it here. So excited!
July 12, 2018. Thursday.
Busy day today. I was supposed to attend a stocks investment seminar but I was caught up with tasks at work. Anyway my friend finally released some pics from last nights photoshoot. But for the meantime, these are behind the scene photos.
July 13, 2018, Friday
Gosh. Before I slept last night, I watched a documentary…and I ended up sleeping at 2am. It is entitled “Give up Tomorrow” . This is about a sensationalized case way back 1997 wherein Paco , a half Filipino, half-Spanish was misjudged and misconvicted as the documentary claimed. I got hooked and shocked. It showed how fucked up the judicial system here in the Philippines.When I woke up the next morning, it was the first thing I thought. Paco, by the way, is still serving in Spanish prison. He’s working as a chef at daytime but still sleeps in prison at night.
To tell you the truth, I am convinced that Paco is innocent. The docu is obviously in favor of Paco. But it includes real-life interviews of the judge, the police, the accuse and the witnesses so it was really hard not not be carried away and be suspicious that there was indeed conspiracy! Not only but a lot of people in social media are now expressing their feelings about this documentary.
But I’ll make it a point that I’ll hear other side because that would be unfair. But let’s leave that for now. My friend finally released my shutter drag photos! Yehey!
I attended Social Media Mastermind Seminar. I arrived one-hour late actually. What I learned? Hmm.. Well my main takeaway was this generation is now more on “stories”. And this generation prefers videos among others. People are more convinced if the presenter is moving and has good stories to tell
I ate at Marugame Udon finally at Glorietta. This Japanese restaurant always have long waiting line. It discourages me every time. But today, I realized I am not that hungry and I have energy to wait. Well, it turns out that even if there indeed long line, they serve really fast. And yes its delicious. What more? It’s not that expensive compared to another Japanese favorite food ramen. I’ll be writing a separate blog about it.
3. The debate about Paco’s innocence are flaring up everywhere in social media. More and more people are watching the documentary Give-Up Tomorrow. This documentary is like watching a horror movie, only it happens or is still happening in real life
July 15, 2018. Sunday
Hiighlight of my day would be I was able to attend church at the “The Feast” with my sister. I was actually feeling lazy because of the rain. And I am so engrossed with reading the commentaries about the Chiong Murder Case. That one really hyped me. I could not deny it. There are more theories spreading. Now it involves drug syndicate and corruption. But anyway I’m happy that I still went to “The Feast” in spite of me being lazy. It really encouraged me that I am not alone this time. The talk for today was about dealing with depression which is very timely right? And I’m happy that the Feast understands that depression is a disease rather than just mere sadness.
Just like what JC Libiran said, when you have cold or cough for 2 to 3 days, it is still not serious. But it went on for weeks or months there must be something wrong! You need to consult a doctor. The same with depression. To feel sad and hopeless is normal, but if it went on for weeks or months , you don’t ignore it. You have to seek help too. I also like that they advised not to say “Kulang ka sa faith. Have faith in God” While this is a sincere advise, it won’t help a clinically depressed person that much. Depression is a medical condition and it needs medical consultation.
If you are not familiar with “The Faeast”, it is a catholic gathering every Sunday. A session comprises of a Mass then worship then a practical talk. I’ll probably write more about it in the future.